The smile on your face
Lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand
Says you'll catch me wherever i fall
You say it best...
When you say nothing at all.
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I've been exposed to a number of deaths this year.. First, is the death of our Art teacher, Mrs Ang.. Second, is the death of Vanessa's Grandpa.. and now.. death of my teacher's beloved wife.. I've experienced the death of my Grandma(ah-ma) when I'm about 5 years old.. But still, I do not understand why are people around me crying.. Especially my dad(I got 2 surnames~ some of you shld noe why).. I'm not sure what to do.. So I cried.. As much as the grown-ups around me.. Cos I'm afraid as I got a feeling that something is going away from me.. Although I do not have a strong relationship with my ah-ma.. And thought that she really do not like me.. I remember she ask me to be a good girl upon her deathbed.. So I thought I'm really not good enough.. But now I know what she means.. She wants me to be good and useful..
The second death I experienced was a heartbreaking one.. It was the death of my Grandmother(ah-po).. I was sec2 then.. It hurts me cos I understand that she's going away from me.. It hurts me cos she knows everything about me.. Including what type of cake I like, what type of shapes I like for jewelleries, etc.. She never fails to pamper me with her love.. Although I remember that I do not like the smell of her room as it smells like the chinese medication oil.. But.. trust me.. I missed that smell right now.. It's a very long story if I want to talk about it.. But I believe that xiaohan & zhangyan knows about it.. xiaohan's mum reacted so strongly to the essay i wrote that she cried too.. oh my.. haha.. (I have not seen any of my grandfathers before.. dun ask me why..)
This time round.. I was heartbroken as I see my joker teacher broke down as he hugged me.. He has been blabbering non-stop about his wife since I'm sec2 and told us how he had wooed her and everything.. He's a good husband, and a good father.. Although he may joke around, but he's very serious when it comes down to family matters.. Now he's no choice but to be strong and bring up his 2-yr-old daughter and 3-mth-old son, who had heart problem.. Just thinking of him now hurts me so much.. Imagine sum1 whom you want to spend your life with, sum1 whom you love so dearly leave you suddenly.. Life is really unpredictable and precious.. Isn't it?
+Listening to+: Kiss Of Life
+Mood+: Heartbroken
left a drop of tear @ 11:40 pm